Entry Specially For Dear

LOL..unexpected i making the 3rd entry for today..what an incident..haha..just as the title stated, this entry is specially dedicated for my dear who currently at New York and departing to India on 4th July 2008..this time she going to leave for one month, or i should say a lil more than a month..=S..gonna miss her "hate you" which she always says to me..=D..yesterday she asked me to call her at 10am her time, but when I called her at 9.30am her time which is 11.30pm over here she had boarded..what else I can do other than "okie..call you again later.."..then hang up the phone..but after that until now I still cant get her..perhaps she forget to bring her phone out or some other reasons..there is nothing more I can do but to miss her..hope she is safe and enjoy all the time..take care my dear..I will be here waiting for you..

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Dissecting A Chicken, Anyone?

Anyone out there want to study internal organ of a chicken?..today is my 1st time ever chop a chicken..their internal organ really offending me..when i wash it, i felt like wanna puke..LOL..i refused to do it, but what to do when grandma's hand inaccessible due to minor operation..so I as her GOOD~ grandson have to back-her-up in her daily routine (cook, cleaning the dishes and etc..)..am I such a "GOOD boy leh"?..hahahhahahahax..well back to the chicken story..after wash it I'm requested to chop off the chicken's bones to boil sup..WTF!..washing it already offended me and now you ask me to CHOP THEM?!..!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*..

*frowning*..since I helped part of it,so I have no excuse for not helping the rest of her job..@.@..felt sorry to the chicken..but I'm enjoying to chew it in my mouth..xD..lets see how should i cook it..hmm..Curry chicken?..or Oyster Sauce Chicken?..anyone any suggestions?..xD

Curry Chicken or,

Oyster Sauce Chicken?
LMAO! XD

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Forget 'n' Forgive

I'm required to forget and forgive all the mistakes and fault that cause by someone that directly hurt me..can I really forget and forgive of that person mistakes and fault?..in every religions, the messages that directed to us were included the message of forgiveness..so what can I do? forgive? sorry i can't make it..as the scar in my heart is still fresh, painful and glum'my..people said, time can be the best potion to heal heart injuries and the only thing that use to convert those hatred to love again..hate a person is afflictive to me..in addition, I will be a pitiful boy that shaded by hatred..so I choose to take time to -

Forgive 'N' Forget


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Questions

"What is the merit of staying down"


"What do I get in return for the goodness I
had committed"


"What is the needs of having a family that can never solve the problems in the house"


"What is the reason for staying in the family other than the love ones"


"Where is the happiness that experienced in childhood life"



- Never expect the bitterness in life is that great -


- Virtually suffocated -


- Drowning in sorrow -



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Simply an Entry

Never imagined there is a picture describing my heart with a few portion..

1. Peace - I love peaceful environment

2. Loyalty - I'm a loyal person no matter to family, friends or whosoever it is..

3. Trust - I'm suppose to be a person who can be trusted, eventually nobody trusting me..

4. Forgiveness - I can forgive people who done bad to me, but time is needed..

Oh, look what had I found..THE TWINS!..Rainbow i meant..hahax..I hope my world would be in

between the two rainbows as I don't wish to have too much colours in my world nor too

little colours in my world, sufficient colours always be my dream

Starry starry night~ this picture really able to describe how I feel yesterday night..I wish to get

out from my house because I felt uncomfortable..eventually I unable to do so because,

besides getting out from this house, I need a person who can accompany me,

its not anyone, but a person who could understand me or at least

who can share my sorrow with..you know, someone who can always share sad and

happy moment with you..

Rain, the tears drop from sky, it should be the tears that could wash away worries and

unhappiness that stuck in me, but it could make me sick too..=p..I LoVe this piC!!

xD..

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Reminding Phrases

"Everyone Have Their Own Wish, And Those Wishes Are Created By Their Own Hand"

This phrase was from a movie..its simply too right to me..in other words, I'm totally agree with it..who have wishes should realise their wishes by their own hand..because the sky won't just drop what we want while what the sky drop for me is problems and difficulties or i should say, its challenges..so far I have a wish which haven't make it come true yet..but I'm on my way to make my wish come true..I wouldn't say that my wish will utterly come true, but I will do my best for the sake of my wish..hope my wish will be blessed..

"The Planet Will Persistently Spinning On It's Orbit No Matter What Happens"

This phrase marely reflected the sorrow of this world..it is true that no matter who we are and what we done or whatever happen on us, life still goes on..only thing that we can do is to rectify what we feel is not right in any circumstances..don't ever have the thought of succumb to adversity..what should do is to stay strong and struggle for the sake of better life..You Want a Better Life, You Go And Get It..Don't ever pity yourself as you are not the only one live on Earth and facing adversity..to all my friends, I sincerely wish you all would overcome all the harship in life and accomplish all the dreams that you have..

p/s: this also the words to remind myself not to succumb to adversity as I'm facing now..God Bless Me Please..as I need blessing from my friends too.. ^_^

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Nth To Blog

Absolute Dilemma

Today went to Cheras Selatan Jaya Jusco..someone bought me a shoe..it worth RM145..but..it was not as happy as i thought i should be..because i saw a short pant worth RM69.90..i tried it and i love it..this is where the dilemma took part..it start with "i want that short pant, but, financially not allow.." its not because i can't afford to buy it..recently i felt im a little stingy (spending reluctantly)..if i buy it, i will be sad..but if i don't buy it i will be sad too..either one way i will feel sad too..so i decided to go back to that store and open my mouth to ask "excuse me, i would like to ask is that short pant having any discount?.." the sales guy replied "I'm sorry, the short pant display in this rack are new arrivals.." and i replied "oh i see, hmm..well, thanks..i will reconsider it.."..walking out the store with disappointment..the whole night was so damn sad..so i plan to buy an ice-cream for myself..i walked in the McDonalds ice-cream counter and want to buy a McFlurry for myself..UNFORTUNATELY, the cashier told me "sorry sir, this is the last customer for today~" once again in my heart i said "DARN! NOW WAD! I JUST WANT AN ICE-CREAM TO CHEER UP MYSELF! WHY DON'T YOU GIVE ME!?!?!?!"..fine..end up i drove to another McDonalds..finally i got my splendid McFlurry..my sadness gone right after i serve the McFlurry..suddenly my mom change a short pant because want to go out..my sadness came back to me with "I'M HOME DEAR FLEEVZ~ I WILL MAKE YOU SAD TILL DEATH.."..MaMaMia..my mom wearing a short pant..and it reminded me of that lovely short pant..i hope i will forget it soon..actually am i extra? extra for being unhappy..i asked permission from my dad to buy that short..but end up i didn't buy it..T.T..goodbye shorty..i promise i will not leave you there in the future..T.T..

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Drive Me Crazy

Today's sky looks gloomy..as gloomy as my emotion now..cloudy day will always be the most appropriate weather to me..not hot, not sweating and not stressful..but whats happen today..perhaps this is what we call EMO-ing..haihz..nothing to do, nothing want to do, and moody..what darr..now don't even feel like to continue today's entry..haihz..HeLp~ heLp~ HELLLLLLLLLLLLPPP~..Mr. FLeeVz is dying~..oh HelP oh HeLp~..i hope this feelings go away A.S.A.P..G.B.M (God Bless Me not Bash me ya)..=p..

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Segmented Sleep

Tonight was so weird..I having a sleepless night..Yesterday I went to bed around 11pm but I can't sleep well..when I close my eyes, I saw a lot of things..its like..well, I don't really know to explain it..lets see..when I close my eyes I saw a lot of things i'm doing but I don't know what am I doing actually..LOL..I was thinking what I haven't done yet..the feeling is like completing a puzzle..I'm finding pieces of puzzle to complete the whole puzzle..it repeating for few hours and I still cant find the pieces of puzzle..finally I gave up in rotating around the bed..i went down stairs tediously hope that won't wake my grandma up..unfortunately, she havent sleep..she can't get in to sleep for few days but she claim that she can fall in sleep during day time..I can't sleep perhaps because of the small bottle of chicken essence with ginseng..O.m.G!!..thats my 1st time drink it..I thought it should taste good but eventually its opposite it..I felt like puking after drinking it..its like a disaster when drinking it..I don't think I will drink it in the future..unless I really need it..perhaps tonight I will have 2 segment of sleep..time to get in to next sleep..sleep well Fleevz..@_@..

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Day That Finally Comes

Past memories finally came back to haunt me..what I worrying last time finally realized..I always have the feeling of being a failure..I'm not as good as some genius and hardworking teenagers..but I always hope I can do my best..when ever things comes, what I reacted to it, is different from what I expected from myself..is this a characteristic or a symptom of a failure?..where is the feeling and hardworking that i own previously?..I know I'm not like this..this isn't the F.C.W.L that i suppose to be..back to the topic, today a friend called me and ask for my help..I really feel blessed that I still able to help people..but guess what he ask me to help..just a piece of cake job..that is to help him check for his graduation status..either Graduate With Distinction or Graduate With Merit..I would love to ask,k WHAT ABOUT ME??? I'M NOT IN THE LIST MAN!!!..to me, i felt that he just don't have the word "Satisfaction" in his heart when I told him that he got Graduate With Merit..maybe I'm wrong about his thought..or maybe I'm just not as good as him thats why I'm easily felt satisfied..I use to ask myself last year "Will that day comes and I'm one of them?" while looking out to the window which i saw few postgraduates with a smiling on their face and the feeling is just so miserable when I don't know I can make it or not..the unseen future of myself that might kill me..is there a way that I can see what and who am I in the next 5 years time?..I can't control my fate well..I believe my life will be totally screw up by myself if I keep on with my retarded attitude..am I able to change myself?..will I succeed?..I really don't know..what i worrying finally comes..I'm not graduating in this year..Sorry to those who had put hope on me..I promise I will be better this time..

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